Couldn't finish my usual pull-up schedule as won extended shuttle match doubles with Potti from 10-2 down. Blew fuse at S. G. Sir when he said we must put extra speakers for Mr. Rasgotra's Thursday talk (it was 9 o'clock, hadn't had breakfast.) Sir had told B. K. earlier, so he was ready. Sridhar had to run and get stand and mic holder, Ankur forgot. So, OK. Electronics Practicals - blew fuse - couldn't do anything. When I thought - Swami made me think - why swear under my breath instead of saying 'Sairam, Sairam', Jain Sir came and helped out. But 3:30. Had to carry mic stand to Hostel for lunch as Ankur and co. forgot - S. G. Sir enquired. Bhajans time could think of how Swami had responded to my plea, to put me in tune, by first hammering almost out of Shruti, then getting back by melting.
Then, Trayee - two rows behind Warden - I could at last concentrate on You. Gen. Chibber - escaped from being Kashmir home advisor, wrote book, Thomson Press only Rs. 35! Mr. Nagraj - Swami played cricket at Venkatagiri - wife was born and brought up devotee, "don't want promotion".
Swami started on this, gave an extremely animated discourse. Promotion indicates good marks. Saying Twameva Maata cha Pita Twameva is duality. Must reach advaita, You and I are One, 3rd promoted class. Actually, man is indebted to all who helped in welfare. Alexander said, "Only duty", but that's only a different name. Dualism - cane juice, bagasse, separate. To be away from old births' influence, [Swami rolled a paper to demonstrate] roll it the other way - then it becomes straight. Senses only give misery. Example - when sit at home, no classes, happy. If go to an exhibition, want this and that, due to seeing. Then, no peace. Only when you hear grandmother died do you start crying. So, senses give more pain than pleasure. We grow old only due to senses' effect. But troubling the body is like hitting the anthill instead of the snake, the mind.
"My" - mayi, maayi, maaya. Today, children think Aayah as Thaayi (Mother) - that is Maaya. Near and Dear - relate to body and heart respectively. Being close to divine feelings. Getting coal and fire near, then fan it - become dear - both unite. Actual Sadhana is devotion, Love.
What we see, hear and talk affects our thoughts. Avoid bad looks. If you have a job - nowadays, ladies are managers, clerks, typists, receptionists - and have to deal with a woman, see her - as a sister. Otherwise, lightning flash - brief moment of brightness, with darkness to follow. 'Arishadvargas' - 6 steps - looking, smiling, talking, letters, friendship, relationship. Like forcibly ripening plantain in steam. Not season - bad - no sweetness though yellow in colour. Only sweet if comes from source.
3 types of friends. 1. Won't come with you when you are dead - eg. wealth. 2. Come till burial ground only - eg. friends. 3. God. With you everywhere. This is maitri - my three. Keep smiling. This will happen only when Aananda springs from the heart. When? Happiness is Union with God. Actually speaking, what is this life? Khaana, Peena, Sona, Marna? (Eating, drinking, sleeping and dying?) Like Panchashikha told Janaka, you enjoy in secret, dogs enjoy in public, that is the only difference.
Shani going to catch a man - hid in a tree for six months - when jeered couldn't catch, Shani said staying in tree instead of house was my influence! Faith can change even the will of God - Markandeya.
Today, rivers are not properly used. Must make them National property, not of states. Not using properly, trying to convert sea water to drinking water!
No question - grow old, your parents will get you married, have children - but don't choose wife on your own. Worry Invite For Ever. Why? Die as a human, not as a dog - sense control. Don't ask, "Swami, give us bhakthi" - that is to be developed, not given!
Swami came to view at the opposite end of the balcony when He went up, smiling, smiling.
Night - 8.50 pm meeting. Ankur, Sridhar arranged, Chaitanya adjusted mic, I controlled the volume. Warden had asked me to set the mics at 8:30. After room prizes, Warden spoke (to all the Hostel inmates) till 9:50. Talking less - instead of teachers shouting, must do on our own - part of personality. Rooms should take own initiative for this. Study more. Then, a thing never before mentioned in public. As Swami has been saying, strictly avoid all contact with girls. Especially letters. So, they would be opening all letters. If you think this is a jail or iron curtain country, you can walk out. You have that freedom. Also, no magazines, only The Hindu and Financial Times (will be allowed), others are vulgar. The place is only as sacred as the minds of the inhabitants are pure.
A very brave man, Mr. Narasimhamurthy (who was Warden at that time).
In hindsight, 30 years later, knowing more about how things used to work, I believe Warden was probably just carrying out Swami's specific instructions in having that meeting, not acting on his own.
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