Started at 5 AM with mic problem - couldn't pinpoint for Suprabhatam, output was loose. 6 to 7:30 wasted as circuit left at Hostel - Project Work. (Meaning that I had gone to the college, Physics Lab, for Project Work, but had forgotten to bring with me from the Hostel, the circuit on which I was supposed to work.) Did V = L di/dt, quite nice, in Library class. Power amps, CTP. Prof. Balasubramanyam - didn't take much, discussed projects.
Sai Ramesh Hall - while going out, Swami looked - stared at me. I was conscious of my dirty pant - some stain near knees. Swami came to my thoughts for bhajans, very happy. Ruchir Sir, Sanjay Sahni Sir (presumably spoke in Trayee). Latter - thinking of Swami - headache gone, aura - Think of Him! Then, Swami. Since now You're not speaking every day, when You do, it's superb.
A screenshot from this video, Picnic with Sathya Sai Baba | Kodaikanal - April 1994 | Thursday Sai Darshan - Part 94
Think of origin - water bubble, born out of water. You are Sat-Chit-Ananda Swaroopa. Must merge back. To reach Sat, need permanent / still mind. For Chit, have Awareness. For Ananda, only through Ananda. Can see the rising Moon by its own light. No petromax, hurricane lantern or torchlight is required. Man is born, lives, and merges in bliss - but doesn't realize where he came from or where he is going - so he is mad!
Envelope needs 'To' address and 'From' address. If someone blames you, but you don't accept it, the blame goes back to the sender. If no address is affixed, it goes to dead letter department.
Don't see bad in others. Why? Because Eswarah Sarva Bhootanam. The Indweller has no stamps. The body, like goods bogie, has 'return' date.
Life is worry - 'Chinta'. 12 worries - living, born, death, etc. Sitting under this tamarind tree (pun on Chinta=worry and Chinta=tamarind in Telugu) and saying mustn't have worry! Sitting in a boat, can one be motionless on a tossing sea?! Put the boat in water, don't put water in the boat. Family - think it is your duty and do. Be like a spoon = Buddhi - it is used to serve sambar, rice, rasam, payasam, but doesn't taste any of these. Examples for detachment giving joy and attachment sorrow - cat, rats, chickens in house. When cat killed the rat, it was rewarded. But when it killed chickens, angry. Attachment --> grief! Servant stole teaspoon, you notified the police. Son stole silver, but then you didn't.
Boys should understand, so I'm giving such simple examples. Another example - if ticks come near, they suck blood. Calf, comes from far, sucks milk. Forgiven, as is own. Vibhishana called out, "I am yours". Sugriva said, leaving own brother and coming to our side, not credible. Rama asked, "Didn't you do the same?" That is, He said, "Shut up your mouth!" in sweet terms! Lakshmana - all should give dose - Rakshasas are owls, desire darkness. I doubt his intentions. "Giving Me Jnanopadesham?!" Accepted Vibhishana. Laxmana as an infant - happiness on joining Rama after separation.
Join the source - eg. Ocean for rain, Mud for pot. Will ultimately reach if we have correct aim. Though there are many stations before reaching Hyderabad, we will get down only for eating food in stations in-between, till we reach Hyderabad. If we have the ticket, there is no fear. Else, fear if co-passenger is TTE (Travelling Ticket Examiner). You get that right by saying "I am yours." Responsibility is - doing your duty. Then, He will take care, need not ask.
Song on "need not ask, mind". Eg - Sabari, Jatayu. Mother doesn't say, "I am elder to you, I won't bend." Bends, but doesn't yield. Aircraft touches down to take rightful passengers. But just because it came down, don't scoff. Faith - ticket needed.
Faith - sing with heart, God hears. Not otherwise. Tansen sang well, but once King told him to stop, listened to beggar singing drumming his plate. Tansen said, "He is singing for God's satisfaction, I'm singing for yours."
Think of God. That will put a ceiling on your desires. Today, due to muscle-power, you have arrogance. Think nobody can do anything to you. But don't think of God, "Sairam, Sairam", only during exam time. Pain is meant to protect pleasure - like bitter rind of orange. Don't eat the seed of bad thoughts just because you bought the mango! Bitterness - think - "good for me" - "Whatever Swami does is good for me".
For the same stomach ache, though all the boys are from the same Hostel, (food is at fault?!) doctor gives different prescriptions (1) gastric trouble - soda bicarb and nat sulph (2) fomentation (3) didn't have bowel movements - strong salt (4) immediate surgery - appendicitis. I know what should be done. Just a finger can cut butter. But for iron, finger will be hurt - hammer alone works.
So, remember - (1) everything is God's gift (2) God exists - faith. Sing His Name with Love. Prema Mudita.
In the night, study hours - Warden wanted me to put rostrum + 2 chairs for 1st years' meeting Prof Nanjundaiah, later 3rd years. Did that + called the boys, so time was spent.
Didn't get up tho' woke up early - can't go on without early morning slogging.
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