1995-01-19 - Thursday - Alarm switched off, so Allah didn't want me to wake early. So, started 1 hour behind schedule (studies). Moral Class - Mr. Narasimhamoorthy's jokes, then Anil Kumar Sir gave away Physics O graders prizes - Telephone book. Whole day free - both Sirs out of station. Spent morning in library, evening in doing a tricky QM integral.
Taking the prize, willed to take Your padanamaskar before accepting; You made it easier by having Anil Kumar sir rather than Mr. Y. Narasimhamoorthy giving away the prizes. Spent too much time in library and on one integral. Took Asimov's "Roving Mind" with the resolution of rationing it out - a test of will power. Bhajan time, You disapproved! Even though I sat in the usual place next to the aisle, ramrod Srikrishna Parasuram made me view only Your "disapproving" photo! So, must stick to schedule and not waste time on poring in the Library.
1995-01-20 - Friday - A violent start to a violent day - dream. Woke early to a very violent dream - lathis, beating, arms and legs torn off, etc. Microprocessor practicals - wrote assignment of Gaonkar. QM usual class. A young man came along with him. Theft from Karwa - Rs. 70. 4th in 5 days. Security beefed up. Bad cold and cough. Slept inside sleeping bag.
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Afternoon - went late for lunch, still You were looking at me with compassion. Felt a cad. Evening went in drawing graph, night meeting etc. (Gopi Sir). Thinking of You only during prayer times - not enough.
1995-01-21 - Saturday - Cough, cold, phlegm in the morning increased to fever, weakness in the afternoon. So, leave in the afternoon c/o P. Sairam. Slept and slept. Mosquito net necessary.
Phlegm made me very irritable. Sairam's (my co-room-leader) brotherliness much appreciated. But I didn't think of You at all - just slept and slept.
1995-01-22 - Sunday - Slept till evening after a brief struggle with QM in the forenoon. Went for Bhajans after a wash. Record writing during study hours. Still "phlegmatic".
Reading newspaper, Asimov - then QM struggle and sleep - finally elevated by Bhajan. I can visualize only Your feet ... a la Lakshmana? Anyway, felt Your proximity. Flushing phlegm by coughing and blowing nose, was helpful.
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