A screenshot from this video - 2085 - Long Drive Bhajans Playlist Vol - 18 | Sri Sathya Sai Bhajans - perhaps Summer Course 1994 inauguration lamp lighting similar to the photo alluded to in this diary entry of 18 Jan.
1995-02-24 - Friday - Morning - got microprocessor practicals all right first time. Had woken at 3 and written. But afternoon Prof's class preceded by Jain Sir's confiscation of books, then extended session after tea (I didn't get tea) till 4:30, then cricket with Prof for half an hour - was badly irritable - ie. "out of mood". Probably lack of food and sleep added up. Refund Rs. 36. We're leaving at 3 am on Sunday (for Prasanthi Nilayam, for Shivarathri)! M.P. 49/50!
So You're putting me through the spectrum? Gave 49/50 in M.P., making me worry over ego problems especially after my early morning conversation with Vishnu over interference fringes, "I'm always right" was the tone. Then, afternoon, irritability plunged the other way ... Dinner time, kept eyes closed till Brahmarpanam, calling You, visualizing You. Kunti effect? (reference to the famous prayer by Mother Kunti, asking the Lord to constantly give her problems so that she would constantly think of Him.)
1995-02-25 - Saturday - Didn't get up at 3 as planned, alarm was switched off. So, records are pending. Did voltage regulator 7805 very thoroughly, fixed up a power supply with Chaitanya by 6:15. Reached just in time for bhajan. Extended talk at night among 4 MPC boys left in the room, after I announced 3 am departure.
Your tests (I believe they are that) put me in a confused state. So, talked of all this to Sampath, Vishnu & Ravi Kishore, only these remaining (in the room) by night (since the others had left for Parthi). Most probably wrong, but what's over is over.
1995-02-26 - Sunday - 1.50 am - Gopi Sir woke us up. Bath, Banana, Tea, Biscuits, loaded by 3. Drivers came by 3.30, reached by 6:30 as "Video Coaches" (meaning that these were private luxury buses instead of the usual slower government buses), just in time for Poornachandra session. Met A2 (parents) after that. I'm not staying with them as they're going tomorrow. Slept darshan time, as afternoon was taken by KLN (classmate).
You waited for us to arrive at Poornachandra - Neilank Jha and Avinash Alimchandani spoke, then You spoke around 6:40 to 8:40, very intimately. Cinema, books, pictures obscene, spoiling youth. Rest, I've written in the "Swami book". KLN's interrogation plus confession - I couldn't help it, also gave insight into my "irritation" - some feel it sometimes. Hope my cold won't cut into Bhajans tomorrow. Heat and dust has led to this cold. Parents are quite OK, but Achan (Father) seems to think more of "applications" ... maybe to tell others. Darshan time - You were far removed from Brindavan - the "muscular smile" in evidence ... Quite obviously You have to be like that here, with so many people observing You critically.
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