1995-02-10 - Friday - Microprocessor practicals - did half the required experiments. S. G. Sir gave AVC key to me for recording Physics program from VHC-C to VHS, also to shift projector to Hostel. Bhajan time movie on Swami, historical. Wrote letter to Swami, all of us, kept in Warden's room as announced. Gopi Sir planning for own PA system with UCR (amplifier), wants cost estimate. Quiz (room-wise) sheet cyclostyled by B4 - very tough.
The same refrain - I'm thinking of You only during specific hours. Maybe the same problem as Vishnu's not being able to do Sandhyavandanam - lack of sustained effort. I'll remember bath time, walking to college, etc (if I don't have to think of any errand), also between two classes.
The vibhuti abhishekam never fails to awe: saw also trips to various places.
1995-02-11 - Saturday - Umesh Sir gone to Parthi, Maths Dept both sick. So, Jain Sir took 1st three hours! N. P. Elec Practicals - wasted much time. Could've done at least two, but did only one exp. by 5. Film "Great Escape" - Vishnu also didn't see it; talked to him about room discipline - he suggests talking to each one individually.
Yesterday's resolve had some effect. I "remembered" You at all those times. But the feeling wasn't there. But, as You say, love must be cultivated by love, so must practice. My concept of You (at present) is of a personal authority who is quite merciful and who handles the puppet strings. This came to light as I wrote a letter to You.
1995-02-12 - Sunday - Fixed English Dept Antenna during social work. Soldered 6 SRH (Sai Ramesh Hall) cables while Vishnu cleaned room with others. Slept 2 to 3, chapati rolling, Muthachan, Ammamma, Jaya cheriamma. (Maternal grandparents and aunt visited.) Thangamani suicided (sic) last Friday! Warden announced Swami set up Rural Water Supply Trust, project given!
Less work, much satisfaction in Social Work antenna fixing. Escapism (from cleaning the room) - at least the SRH cables are ready now. Muthachan, Ammamma, Jayacheriamma produced waves, especially as the latter choked when I touched M & A's feet. "Come to Poona - when will we see you next?"
Bombshell was Thangamani's violent death (She had a tiff with her sister at home due to cruel taunts that she's still at home after marriage as her husband had returned to the Gulf, and poured the hot water which she had been boiling in the kitchen, on her sister. When her mother and others scolded her and took her sister to the hospital, she killed herself) and predictably Amma not being able to sleep. The person who had given us feed for ~10 years! So, prayed for her. My sieve-like memory is "Urvashi shaapam upakaaram" (a blessing in disguise.) But A3 don't have it - so I must write a condolence letter.
A screenshot from this video.
Rural Water Supply Trust and Swami saying that He will include students and seva dal in the work - lifting of Govardhana Giri many times, as Warden said.
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